Time for one of those "line in the sand", things have to change posts...
OK... this is one of those non-technical, personal, "I'm sick of my status quo" posts. If you're looking for book reviews or off-base technology analysis, you're free to move on.
So I turn 48 in less than a week. Mentally, I still feel like that 14 year old awkward teenager who doesn't quite know how to fit in to the world he finds himself in. Physically, I keep thinking that all those workouts I did in my late teens/early twenties are still evident. And then you see the pictures... and you find yourself breathing hard after doing something that you think only old people should have problems with. You see people who you consider overweight, and then you check the charts, only to find that you would be diagnosed as "morbidly obese". Couple all those things together with all the stress at work and other areas, and the picture isn't pretty.
Basically, I'm 48, I'm in the worst shape of my life, and I'm killing myself.
Starting next Monday, I start a program at work called Kinetix (http://www.kinetixliving.com/home.php). It's a comprehensive program of eating and exercise, designed to get you to a healthy state. Within that program, our work has a number of "lottery slots" for four week programs where you work with a personal trainer for an hour a day, five days a week. I could sit here and tell you I know everything they're going to tell me about cardio and strength training, as I've been there before. Sad that I've let that all go to waste. During the upcoming week, I'll be getting "assessed", body comp analyzed, and all those other things that make you come face to face with the fact that... well... you're fat.
I normally bemoan the tendency of media and people in general to use ever-increasing hype and sensationalism to make points or to get attention. Therefore, to sit here and say "this is a last chance" would probably be overly dramatic. On the other hand, It's not a stretch to look at my current state and say I'm living on borrowed time.
Kinetix won't fix all my other problems, such as my pigpen of an office, lack of focus, feeling pulled in 20 directions, etc. But if I can at least get something moving on my health, I would hope that it would translate to more energy to clean up other areas. And to say I *know* this will work would be a lie, as I've said the same thing about weight watchers, jenny craig, and every other attempt to battle my weight over the years. But I've not undertaken those at apoint in life (likely fewer years looking forward than back) and realized that the 3rd quarter is clicking down, and the score doesn't look good for the home team.
So if I seem a bit withdrawn over the next few weeks, you'll know that my mental state isn't the greatest. Either that, or I'm unable to move after the trainer has gotten done with me...