For those who have asked and wondered, yes I'm OK... just struggling a bit right now...
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I've gotten pinged on the side from a number of people asking if I was OK or if I was doing OK due to periodic stretches of radio silence. The short overall answer is "thanks, I'm OK", and the longer answer is I'm working through a stressful period right now.
There are numerous things going on at work that make me feel like I'm trying to do far too many things and not being terribly successful at any of them. I've always lived in multi-task mode, with various things going on, while still responding timely to questions and such. It seems to have magnified of late, and I'm even letting emails slip that normally would have gotten same day responses. For someone who used to feel on top of stuff, delivering good customer service, and knew what he was doing, it's been hard.
The anti-depressant med change is still in flux. I dropped the generic Prozac after about six years to control my dysthymia. I was starting into the "Prozac poop-out" phase, where the tolerance builds up to such a point that the effects start to diminish. We switched to generic Celexa at a low dose, and that didn't do much. The dose was up'd, but it still really hasn't kicked in. We're going to give it two more weeks. If at that point it's still not making a difference, then we'll take a different approach. I'm starting to miss the person I knew I was with the Prozac.
I'll be undergoing a sleep study Monday night to see how bad my sleep apnea is. I can only keep up these 5 to 6 hour nights for so long. I know it's weight-related (or at least that's a large part of it, no pun intended). I really don't want to go down the CPAP device route and look/sound like Darth Vadar every night. We'll deal with that once we get the results back.
On the fitness front, the stress has taken its toll. The work facility has been closed down for a remodel, which means I have to use alternatives (which I *do* have available to me). But I talk myself out of stuff far too easy due to fatigue, and I end up missing stuff. And stress eating has reared it's head. I'll have my 12 week check-point on Monday, so I'll report back here, good bad or otherwise.
I'm not even writing as much as I used to (and my reading volume is down)! I have about four books to write reviews on, and each night after work it's close to all I can do to just settle down with a good book and read. Forget about trying to put down coherent thoughts on a page about a book I've already read...
Given all that above, you can see why I may not be too inclined to be sympathetic to all the sniping in the Lotus community right now...
Anyway... such is the life of Duffbert at the current time. Thanks for all who have expressed concern. I'm not looking for sympathy here. It just helps me when I can dump my thoughts and struggles out here to get them out of my mind and give them some space of their own...
I've gotten pinged on the side from a number of people asking if I was OK or if I was doing OK due to periodic stretches of radio silence. The short overall answer is "thanks, I'm OK", and the longer answer is I'm working through a stressful period right now.
There are numerous things going on at work that make me feel like I'm trying to do far too many things and not being terribly successful at any of them. I've always lived in multi-task mode, with various things going on, while still responding timely to questions and such. It seems to have magnified of late, and I'm even letting emails slip that normally would have gotten same day responses. For someone who used to feel on top of stuff, delivering good customer service, and knew what he was doing, it's been hard.
The anti-depressant med change is still in flux. I dropped the generic Prozac after about six years to control my dysthymia. I was starting into the "Prozac poop-out" phase, where the tolerance builds up to such a point that the effects start to diminish. We switched to generic Celexa at a low dose, and that didn't do much. The dose was up'd, but it still really hasn't kicked in. We're going to give it two more weeks. If at that point it's still not making a difference, then we'll take a different approach. I'm starting to miss the person I knew I was with the Prozac.
I'll be undergoing a sleep study Monday night to see how bad my sleep apnea is. I can only keep up these 5 to 6 hour nights for so long. I know it's weight-related (or at least that's a large part of it, no pun intended). I really don't want to go down the CPAP device route and look/sound like Darth Vadar every night. We'll deal with that once we get the results back.
On the fitness front, the stress has taken its toll. The work facility has been closed down for a remodel, which means I have to use alternatives (which I *do* have available to me). But I talk myself out of stuff far too easy due to fatigue, and I end up missing stuff. And stress eating has reared it's head. I'll have my 12 week check-point on Monday, so I'll report back here, good bad or otherwise.
I'm not even writing as much as I used to (and my reading volume is down)! I have about four books to write reviews on, and each night after work it's close to all I can do to just settle down with a good book and read. Forget about trying to put down coherent thoughts on a page about a book I've already read...
Given all that above, you can see why I may not be too inclined to be sympathetic to all the sniping in the Lotus community right now...
Anyway... such is the life of Duffbert at the current time. Thanks for all who have expressed concern. I'm not looking for sympathy here. It just helps me when I can dump my thoughts and struggles out here to get them out of my mind and give them some space of their own...
